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Serenity’s
voice shook when she asked, “Was that all you wished of me, King Melchior? A
legal marriage and nothing else?”
“My intentions
were to solidify the peace, nothing else. You said on our wedding day you
understood marriages of state, Serenity.”
“I understand a
loveless marriage where heirs are still expected,” Serenity replied in a
breathy voice. “I understand a marriage of convenience to unify two kingdoms
into one. I do not understand why I needed to leave my home. I do not
understand my place in this kingdom.”
“Cheslav is
more inclined to keep and maintain the peace so long as you reside in Nexeu.”
“I’m a
hostage.”
“If you choose
to see the situation that way, then so be it. You are my wife and you are queen
because of it.”
“I am only the
queen of Nexeu because Queen Asha was killed before you wed me. It is within
your power to take the title away from me and grant it to your second wife,
when you marry her. You will marry another, I know that. Nexeu needs an heir.”
Melchior moved
away from his desk, turning his back on Serenity. He sat in his chair but
didn’t look at her. “I will not speculate on the future with you, Serenity.
Ruling my kingdom and ensuring your safety have kept me from considering
another wife.”
“What is there
to consider? I’m sure Keran will say yes the moment you ask her. Traditionally,
the king would wait for his first wife to bear him an heir before wedding
another, but this is an untraditional marriage. There is no need to stand on
ceremony in this—”
“Stop,
Serenity! Even if I planned to marry another tomorrow, Keran would not be whom
I chose.”
That surprised
her. “She is your current favorite and she occupies your bed almost every
night. The whole of the palace thinks it’s only a matter of time before you
make her your wife and then queen shortly thereafter.”
Her gaze
searched his for some hint that the rumors were true. She only saw his
annoyance.
“The people of
the palace also think you go against my orders and take Hell Hound Chigaru and Hell Hound Haige to your bed. The
change in the color scheme of your wardrobe—” he gestured to her orange dress,
“—concurs with their suppositions. Shall I believe them in this as you do in
the other?”
“It would be
the truth if you allowed me to take a lover.”
“My answer
remains no.”
“Why?” Serenity
yelled.
Melchior yelled
back, “Do not question me in this, Serenity. I have told you already you will
not be allowed a lover. Do not mention it again. Ever.”
“Then I wish to
return to your bed, Melchior.” Her statement was bold and it shocked her that
she had said it aloud. She hadn’t meant to say the words, but there they were.
Melchior seemed
as shocked as Serenity. He stared at her.
Serenity took
his silence as incentive to continue. She moved closer to him and clasped her
hands in front of her in a pleading manner. She whispered, “I love you,
Melchior. I want to be with you. I’ve always only wanted you.”
“That is a lie.
Your requests for a lover are proof of your lie.”
“I thought to
make you jealous. I thought if you knew another bhresya male wanted me then you
would return me to your bed…that I would become attractive to you, as well.”
Melchior said
nothing.
“I know I may
never arouse you as Keran does, but I also know with time I could learn to
satisfy you. Please, Melchior. I want only to be with you again.”
He closed his
eyes and Serenity thought he might actually be considering her words. Instead
of roundabout tactics, she should have confessed herself from the start. Had he
known of her emotions for him she could have enjoyed his touch all the sooner.
“I will not
take you to my bed, Serenity.”
“Melchior, I—”
“I cannot
return the feelings you think you have for me.” He opened his eyes and looked
at her.
“I don’t think I have feelings for you, Melchior.
I know I do.”
“You cannot—”
“Yes, I can!”
she yelled over his words, hurt by his insult and finally showing it.
Melchior
replied in a calm manner, “You cannot
love me, Serenity. Your ability to lie, even to yourself, hurts you with each
passing moment you give this falsehood credence. You haven’t known me long
enough to love me.”
“I feel as
though I have known you forever. I knew it from the moment I looked into your
eyes.”
“Love is not so
quick.”
“It was for
me!”
He gestured to
her. “This is my point. You do not love me but an image of me you made up based
on information your Hell Hounds imparted to you over the years. You prepared yourself to love me as a way to
cope with the new life that would be soon forced upon you.”
While his words
made sense, Serenity refused to believe them. She hadn’t imagined the spark of
recognition, the meeting of two souls that happened when she met his gaze for
the first time. His touch felt familiar to her and she knew his feel even
before he introduced himself to her. She knew Melchior to be hers with every
fiber of her being. There was no way he hadn’t felt the same. She thought she
saw it during their wedding ceremony and didn’t understand why he denied it.
She said,
“Destiny placed us together because she knew of the love we would have for one
another.”
“Your obsession
with Destiny is the reason you cannot grasp reality, Serenity. This emotion you
claim to have is not based on any truth. You do not know me.”
“Love cannot be
rationalized or measured in time.”
“Love also
cannot endure when it is false. Time is on my side. When enough of it passes,
you will come to realize your feelings were nothing but a delusion.” “The only person in this room who is deluded is you, Melchior.” She spun
around and stormed out of the room. |